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sticksofthejedi) wrote2013-09-08 12:58 am
sticksofthejedi) wrote2013-09-08 12:58 am
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Memory 73
Memory: First makeout with Jagged Fel.
Received: Day 281, early evening
Form: Memories are in the form of a leather tankard full of wine. Once the wine runs out, the memory is no longer there. Enough for three 8 oz glasses of wine (or sips, as sips are enough for the memory).
Summary: An operation gets botched, but they all manage to get out of it okay. Jaina beats herself up about it until she and Jag finally address their UST.
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It's the Siege of Borleias, with a battle group led by Wedge Antilles and Tycho Celchu basically assigned to make the Yuuzhan Vong to sink as many resources as possible into taking the system. There's capital ships orbiting, including an old Super Star Destroyer. Jaina, Kyp Durron, and Imperial pilot Jagged Fel are landing star fighters at a ground side base after an operation; Jaina notices Celchu is waiting for them.
She's young and adjusting to her first command, so she's practically quashed with apprehension. Tycho just asks if anyone's hurt; they apparently all got out of the operation fine. Kyp's completely drained, though, and considering he's one of the Jedi with the most raw power, that's saying something. He gets leave from Jaina to go rest, addressing her as "Great One" -- the New Republic's maintaining a charade that Jaina is the Vong goddess of tricks, Yun Harla.
Tycho tells her General Antilles wants to see her. And Jag later. He passes on praise to the trio for a tactic with a shadow bomb that took out an enemy interdictor. Jaina and Kyp agree to back giving credit for the kill to Jag. Kyp goes his own way while Jaina and Jag accompany Tycho to Wedge's office. Tycho goes in, and a few moments later sticks his head out to tell them they'll have to wait about five minutes.
Jag takes the opportunity to ask to speak privately. She takes him down to a nearby conference room, along the way continuing to have miserable thoughts. He'd be angry with what she'd done -- she'd abandoned mission objectives for one pilot's sake. She could have wiped out the rest of her squadron trying to save him. It was a complete failure as a leader and officer. And he'd be right. Jag would stare with that calculating and hard expression, say exactly what he thought, and leave for a unit that could live up to his professional standards.
And that thought really hurts.
When they get to the conference room, Jag closes the door behind her.
Jaina: I know what you're going to say.
Jag: I don't think you do.
Jaina: You're going to tell me that I screwed up. You're going to elaborate until you're certain I can't take it anymore. Then you're going to leave.
Jag: No. We both know that your command decisions were far afield of common sense and effective strategy. We don't even have to discuss that. What I have to know... [He hesitates.] What I have to know is this: Why did you do it?
Jaina: I don't know.
Jag: You do know. You have to know. Nobody else but you could know. Answer me.
Jaina: I... I... Everyone is going away. They keep going away, and I can't stop it. I didn't want you to go away.
[Jag pulls her against him, and she leans against him, crying. It's worth noting Jaina's been spending earlier scenes of this book convinced either she's going to die in this war, or everyone she cares about will die and she'll survive only to wish she hadn't.]
Jag: I won't go anywhere.
Jaina: Why?
Jag: Why what?
Jaina: Why won't you go anywhere?
Jag: Because I don't want to.
Aaaand then kissing, and she's thinking about the elating feeling in flight terms. When they're done making out, he convinces her to go get some rest. He'll talk to his uncle about how the operation turned out. Things feel a lot better, not feeling so isolated anymore.
Received: Day 281, early evening
Form: Memories are in the form of a leather tankard full of wine. Once the wine runs out, the memory is no longer there. Enough for three 8 oz glasses of wine (or sips, as sips are enough for the memory).
Summary: An operation gets botched, but they all manage to get out of it okay. Jaina beats herself up about it until she and Jag finally address their UST.
--
It's the Siege of Borleias, with a battle group led by Wedge Antilles and Tycho Celchu basically assigned to make the Yuuzhan Vong to sink as many resources as possible into taking the system. There's capital ships orbiting, including an old Super Star Destroyer. Jaina, Kyp Durron, and Imperial pilot Jagged Fel are landing star fighters at a ground side base after an operation; Jaina notices Celchu is waiting for them.
She's young and adjusting to her first command, so she's practically quashed with apprehension. Tycho just asks if anyone's hurt; they apparently all got out of the operation fine. Kyp's completely drained, though, and considering he's one of the Jedi with the most raw power, that's saying something. He gets leave from Jaina to go rest, addressing her as "Great One" -- the New Republic's maintaining a charade that Jaina is the Vong goddess of tricks, Yun Harla.
Tycho tells her General Antilles wants to see her. And Jag later. He passes on praise to the trio for a tactic with a shadow bomb that took out an enemy interdictor. Jaina and Kyp agree to back giving credit for the kill to Jag. Kyp goes his own way while Jaina and Jag accompany Tycho to Wedge's office. Tycho goes in, and a few moments later sticks his head out to tell them they'll have to wait about five minutes.
Jag takes the opportunity to ask to speak privately. She takes him down to a nearby conference room, along the way continuing to have miserable thoughts. He'd be angry with what she'd done -- she'd abandoned mission objectives for one pilot's sake. She could have wiped out the rest of her squadron trying to save him. It was a complete failure as a leader and officer. And he'd be right. Jag would stare with that calculating and hard expression, say exactly what he thought, and leave for a unit that could live up to his professional standards.
And that thought really hurts.
When they get to the conference room, Jag closes the door behind her.
Jaina: I know what you're going to say.
Jag: I don't think you do.
Jaina: You're going to tell me that I screwed up. You're going to elaborate until you're certain I can't take it anymore. Then you're going to leave.
Jag: No. We both know that your command decisions were far afield of common sense and effective strategy. We don't even have to discuss that. What I have to know... [He hesitates.] What I have to know is this: Why did you do it?
Jaina: I don't know.
Jag: You do know. You have to know. Nobody else but you could know. Answer me.
Jaina: I... I... Everyone is going away. They keep going away, and I can't stop it. I didn't want you to go away.
[Jag pulls her against him, and she leans against him, crying. It's worth noting Jaina's been spending earlier scenes of this book convinced either she's going to die in this war, or everyone she cares about will die and she'll survive only to wish she hadn't.]
Jag: I won't go anywhere.
Jaina: Why?
Jag: Why what?
Jaina: Why won't you go anywhere?
Jag: Because I don't want to.
Aaaand then kissing, and she's thinking about the elating feeling in flight terms. When they're done making out, he convinces her to go get some rest. He'll talk to his uncle about how the operation turned out. Things feel a lot better, not feeling so isolated anymore.